i went to wy's chalet (i really dunno what to call it, class/small gathering on monday night, and it was fun with just the few of us ! hahaha. supposed to go on the second night, but i very clever-ly went to buy milk tea and then got a stomachache. good job, since milk always gives me stomachaches. zzz.

met vian stella wy and yl for dinner as mos on wednesday, which i think was okay. hahah.

haven't seen them for very long already, just that liana couldn't come. hmmm, next time !

YAAAY. (just felt like saying that.)

OH and i skipped physics on thursday just because i felt like it. the physics teacher is so good, he should just nominate himself for the most boring teacher ever award lah, totally talking to himself half the time and then thinking and pondering if what he wrote on the board is correct or not. zzz to the max lah worst thing is he is teaching us maths too.

and MATHS. oh man, why the hell did i go get a E for maths huh huh huh i know i can get a C lah and if i just didnt make a few stupid mistakes i would have gotten the C, and i wouldn't have to take this stupid maths module and waste my time. pfffft. then again, if i got that C, i MIGHT have made it into local u but that's not the point. hah. maths mid term on friday by the way, and i'm not good at integration and differentiation. after 5 years they should be my best friends already lah, stop running away from me can ! ):

cruise was oh-kay, cos i dont gamble (min bet $50 leh o.O)

because we pushed the beds together, my sister kept sleeping over into my space, making the small space even smaller. middle of the night have to wake up and push her back, and then after that shut her phone up since she somehow cannot hear the super loud alarm ringing. -.-

spent most of our time eating or walking around and exploringand me feeling guilty for not studying maths/mcb/bioinformatics/doing physio essay due thurs. saturday my brother kept bugging me to watch HSM3 with him just cos it was showing on disney. and when we were in our cabins for a short while in the afternoon waiting for dunno what, we both fell asleep watching HSM2.

i fell asleep while watching shrek3 today, and woke up when my sister was alternating between twilight and HSM3. rather boring for both, though i'll prefer HSM3 since the songs keep me awake at least. i'm losing it, JE what have you done to meeee o.0

this sorts of sums up my entire week. (:

P.S Bioinformatics is ___. dunno what he talking about, die.

P.P.S still dunno what is differential cell count, why cannot use internetttt ):

"There are many reasons to laugh in the middle of a strong wind, even if it seems impossible."

to val for breakfast,

the weather for the rain and massive flooding,

lunch with my family,

and peggy and yl for dinner. (:

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just a sudden though, with the release of the PSLE results.

for at least half of our life, we are brainwashed into thinking that the govt has the best policies and everything is picture perfect. or so it seems.

they convince us of the goodness of the policies implemented, ERP and whatnot, the goodness of the govt and what they have done for us.

and when we're all under the impression of this picture perfect life, we enter real life, and wonder wtf happened to the supposedly best policies.

and then we realise that all along, it wasn't that picture perfect after all.

the education system, just how good is it ?

for people like my brother, who are the cream of the crop, sg has a lot to offer.

internships, places in prestigious schools, scholarships, future job prospects, whether local or overseas.

BUT.

what about those like me or my other siblings, who are not so lucky academically ? what paths have we got to choose ? or do we not have a choice ?

to make matters worse, the influx of foreign talents that the govt is encouraging. as mentioned, they are foreign talents. what chance do we have against them ?

can't get into local uni ? go overseas lor.

no money to go ? find money lor.

just what other choice do we have here, i really don't know. looking at the situation, it seems really rather bleak. hitting dead ends everywhere.

no doubt, its good here. you may be a science students, but you can take arts subjects too. i like it that way, just so that i can escape from sciences for a while. BUT. i don't have the chance to experience that. sad, but true.

RIGHT. enough pondering about bleak stuff. though i really have no idea how my younger brother is going to go through this.

what options does this country have to offer to students like him ? feeling rather worried now, but there doesn't seem to be anything i can do about it. i don't even know where i can go from here, and i am much better off than him academically.

sigh. wonder why small kids always dream of growing up, being 21.

what picture perfect world lah, like shit.

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gokusen ! (:

though i'm not a fan of KT, kame is hot. and Night from Absolute Boyfriend too, plus Oguri Shun and a lot of others whose names i cannot remember at all.

sad that there's no sawada shin lah. oh wells :/

"We fight to protect the people and things we cherish." (: -Yankumi

and 2012 is nice !

i was intrigued by polar reversals and tectonic plate movements when i was studying plate tectonics in j1, and i am still intrigued by it now. though the one in 2012 is rather exaggerating(20+ degrees shift in a few mins leh), it is still amazing.

though i would like the world leaders to tell me (when they find out) when exactly the world is going to end. i don't want to see the giant wave crashing upon me, or the huge crack in the ground and realise its the end of the world.

at least let me enjoy first, please.

and i think mass prayers are actually rather moving. the sight of thousands congregating and putting their faith in religion (though at time it wouldn't help anyway), hmmm not bad (:

"The moment we stop fighting for each other is the moment we lose all humanity."

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so many things to think about, i don't know which way to push my brain to.

argh, my brother should just share his brain cells with me already lah. :/

i'm going off to make friends with differentiation for the third time !